Thursday, June 16, 2016

Pre and Post Pregnancy

9 LONG GRUELING months have now past and here I sit with a newborn at my feet and a 4.5 year old at my side. I never thought to imagine me a mom times 2 but here I am! It's been 1 week since I had my second son and life is starting to form a new normal. My body is still going through it's healing process after 9 months of being stretched, prodded and worn out. Hell, I'm still recovering from birth last week. I have places that are sore that I have no idea why they'd be sore! Birth, man. What a drag yet at the same time so rewarding and special. It's totally surreal to hold a 9.1 lb (yes, he was 9 lbs!) 22" human in your arms and think "Holy shit I made you and you came from my body?! How did you even fit in there??" The last few months of my pregnancy were hard mentally and physically for me. I gained just under 50 lbs and that alone was hard (I gained 30 with my first son) but I just felt SO huge. Not huge like "Oh my God Becky, I'm SO FAT!" but a "I can't get in and out of the car without huffing and puffing" my body was limiting a limited day.

My husband says I felt that way at the end of my last but I do NOT remember that at all (he also says I have baby amnesia!). These last few weeks I was past ready to get this baby bean out of me and get my body back to some sort of normal. In that time I had a lot of hours to reflect on my body and all the amazing things it can do, including squeeze out another human! The night we got home from the hospital I made a beeline for the shower and actually got to shave my legs and dry my entire body off! Oh, it felt amazing! I got out of the shower feeling anew. I looked in the mirror (can't avoid it since it's right in front of the shower) and was SO happy to have my body back. Yes, 50 lbs heavier (well probably 40 now that the monster is out) but in love that I could grab and squish my tummy again. No longer tight from a growing uterus and no longer sticking so far out I could see it in my peripheral vision, I found a new love for the part I've hated for so long and even more during the last months of pregnancy.

I feel a sense of well being and needing to take care of my body more. Again, I'd love to eat healthy, know I'm eating healthy, and just feel great. I want to be able to play with my kids, especially my oldest since he's SO active, and concentrate on them and not the ways my body is inhibiting me from doing things I want to do or enjoying things I should be able to enjoy. Starting off a new, old, journey again of self help and self care. Eating right and eventually working in that exercise I need.  For now, I'm just lucky to say I've got that 4.5 year old at my side and a newborn at my feet. Such a blessed life that I don't want to take fro granted.

Thursday, March 3, 2016

More Influenster!

I received yet another wonderful "Vox Box" from Influesnter and I'm happy to be able to rave and not rave about the items I received! I had thought I'd taken a photo, in fact I'm sure I did, but it has since gotten lost somewhere in digital land. Let's break the items down:

My favorite item was the Hormel Taco Meat. Well, we received a coupon to purchase the meat and that was good enough. I must complain a bit I had to travel to a store that I never go to to get the product and my coupon didn't quite cover the cost of the item so I ended up paying $1.15 for the Shredded Pork, but it was worth it! This meat tasted literally just as if I had made it fresh myself that very moment. The Mexican spices were fabulous and very fresh tasting. It was a breeze to whip up and if I ever make it back to that Smith's (Kroger) again I'll be sure to pick some up. I wish these were a little less pricy because at $6+ tax it seems a bit budget heavy BUT at 7 servings per package and knowing I always have taco makings on hand this would be a great item to store in the freezer for last minute dinner. A+ rating.

My second favorite items were the Suave Professionals Shampoo and Conditioner. I've always used Suave because, let's be honest here, they are inexpensive and smell great! It's a trusted name for me and I've never had a problem with their products. These Coconut scented items were the best. They made my hair SO silky smooth and my whole bathroom smelled of delicious coconut mixture. I'd buy more of these and most likely will. A+ rating.

Third favorite was the Dr. Teals Relaxing Epsom Bath Salts. Wowee. What a strong lavender scent this had but very relaxing and soothing. The directions say to use the whole bag but I only used half thinking the whole bag was a bit much (plus I wanted my husband to have the opportunity to use some too!). I rubbed some salts on my feet before letting it dissolve in my bath water, ahhhh. I have used Dr. Teals before in my bath bomb making and should I make more I'd give these a whirl. Left my skin feeling nice and soft and I was ready for bed afterwards. A rating.

Moving down the line to my lessor liked products we have the Way Better Snacks in Sweet Chili. When I popped these opened and had my first taste I hated them. I immediately tossed them on my pantry shelf and eventually came back, hard up for a snack, a few weeks later and gave them a second chance. They seemed to taste better, or not terrible like I first had thought so I took them to the couch. A few minutes later and the taste seemed to be gone, like the chips weren't privy to the spice sprayer or something. They were bland, maybe because I let them sit for a few weeks but still, the second time I tried the first chip it did have flavor. The chips look funky with their seeds and what not and I just wasn't a big fan. I tried them with salsa in hopes they would be better and they were slightly. At that point it tasted like a sadder version of a tortilla chip. These chip were not my style. D Rating.

Lastly the Yay App. I have to admit I hated this. Yet ANOTHER app to install on my phone and yet another healthy app that is supposed to keep my exercising in high gear.... Uhh... what exercising? Hah. Maybe that's the point? To get me to exercise? It's going to take more than an app, where I have to add friends, to get me to exercise. #SorryNotSorry. Pretty much added the app and pretended to care because I really just didn't. in fact, the name of my group is "the Lazy Ass" group. Does it get anymore to the point than that? If I were to exercise I'd use my RunKeeper or download MyFitnessPal again because I don't need to add people to be able to use the functions.  F Rating.

And there you have it folks, my honest opinions regarding all the products I received for free from Influesnter. Thanks again to Influenster for sending the items to me, too!

Thursday, December 10, 2015

Influenster Fabulousness!

As some of you may know I've been a member of Influenster product testing page for a few years now and I absolutely love it. I'm HUGE on reviewing things (I'm kind of a big deal on now and I love trolling the reviews fora product. I've found that opinions are usually split half and half on who loves the product and who hates it so it's always a tough call but I like to be the judge for myself.
The most recent "Vox Box" I've gotten! So good!!!

Once you sign up for Influenster (It's 100% FREE!!!) you find products you've used on their page of millions of items and give your best review.  Everynow and then they will send you a survey to see if you're eligible for what they call a "VoxBox" and if you are then a few weeks later a fabulous surprise awaits in your mail box. You get to dive in to the item(s) and test them. Once you've received your box you log on to their page and check out the tasks you must complete. You don't HAVE to complete the tasks but if you want a chance at more boxes you will do the tasks and do them all.

Anyhow, I just wanted to touch base with you all and share their latest video for some awesome products coming up. Can you guess what the brands are?  I'd love to see one of these beauties in my mailbox soon! Here's the video:

Wednesday, September 16, 2015

Remember When...

Hi all,

Remember when I had this blog and actually posted content to it? Yeah, me too! That was when life was simple and I had a 9-5 job where I wasn't challenged and had plenty of time to take outfit pictures and actually post stuff. I know, I know, for the past two months I've been yammering on (in those last two posts) about Real Estate and now that I'm a Realtor life is way different. I'm sorry. Tis life.

Also, The guy who ran all my websites and did the nitty gritty work passed away unexpectantly so I've been left up to my own devices and... well... a year and a half of posts has been deleted because I don't know how to build a website and the server the website was built on was under his name and so I lost all my old content, so back to I go. At least I was smart enough to re-direct my content. So, let's start a new shall we?!

My blogging started off as fat me wanting to lost weight and try to learn to love the body I had (yes, sort of a conundrum there right?!) Then I lost the baby weight plus thirty pounds and I wanted to Lose MORE MORE MORE and it never happened and then you know as with all those other weight loss stories I gained back 30 lbs. Oy Vey. I did learn an important lesson during that journey... my body is great the way it is! These days I'm more focused on trying to be healthy, while still fat.  I'd still like to do reviews on any new products I come across and just blah blah blah about life in general. Any readers still out there I'd love to have you along for the ride!

Me on the left and my very dearest and longest friend, Amanda, on her bachelorette night. 

Saturday, November 2, 2013

Bitter Sweet

Ok, Nov 1st. STarting of the weigh only once a month and measure and take photos saga. I need this. I gained F'ing 2.4 lbs this week. REALLY? I HATE YOU SCALE!!!! I have been pooping my ass off because my son brought home a bug and first dad got it then me so my mom said "Maybe it's your body retaining water because you've lost so much?!" My retort was  "It's always something!" because it really seems like it is. First it's my period, then it's "a lb of muscle weighs more than a lb of fat "( last time I checked a pound is a pound?!), now it's water retention. Whatever, F you scale! My husband, when talking about what the scale told him he says it's a compulsive liar, and I believe it. Ok, so now that the scale issue is out of the way I have snuck off to measure. The last time I measured was October 19th and I have before in the past but never wrote a date down so the I'm just going to post what the earliest recordings are. I'm actually happy with these which is proof that measuring an weighing only once a month will be killer good for me and my "must get to a certain number" mind set. Here's the results:

There you have it. My big ol body measurements! Again, since I don't have a date (I really think it was around 6 months ago) for the first time nor did I measure for each category you get an idea! In my bust I've lost 1.75" in my waist I've lost 2", stayed the same in my tummy, lost .5 in my thigh, and 1.5" in my calf! A total loss of 5.75 inches. That's amazing! I think it's even more amazing because "they" say it's always hardest to lose the inches because that fat's been there the longest (or something? haha). I'm surprised my thighs haven't lost more since I can feel them burn while peddling the bike but I guess it's more calf muscle than anything, eh? If we go off the first measurements I've lost a total of 11.75 in the categories that I measured for. So, I'm extremely happy about this. I'm glad I snuck off to do this because I needed to and it's part of this and it's made me feel better about that fucking scale making it a point to ruin my life. The next Saturday next month is a whole week in to December so do you think I should do the last Saturday in November or just literally start at the first of each month? Saturday's have always been my weigh days so I just get all freaked out about changing the days even though now that I'm doing once a month it really shouldn't matter, right? 

Whipple, out. 

Friday, November 1, 2013

OOTD: Walmart Special and Outcast feelings

Yes. Tomorrow is Saturday, my first 1 month weigh in, measure and photo taking. Even if I get on the scale and it is up I'm gearing myself up to see what happens. Again, I'm putting too much stock into the number on the scale and not enough thought into my other numbers and factors. I feel great, I'm able to bike farther/easier, clothes still fitting great, etc. So, we'll see. I'll post my first measurements here, EEK!, but ya know, whatever.

Lately, I've been kind of feeling like a blogger outcast. While this did start of a weight loss blog I really fell into the Fat Positive Movement. And if you haven't heard about that, Google it, basically it's people loving their bodies as it is. I've blogged about it before and it's really great BUT most of the F.A. people are against any sort of Diet talk and you MUST love your body how it is... that's great for them but I DO not love my body as it is. I should, but I don't. We all should, but we don't. I know my great husband married me at my highest weight and he doesn't care about my weight but I'm sure he does care when I shy away from his touch, or throw a MAJOR fit when he see's me getting dressed in the morning, or the fact that I've only just recently let him keep the light on in the shower (yes we shower together and it took all sorts of guts on my end however many years ago to get past this, but it's usually always done in the dark, or light from the closet). There are certain spots I bite his face off if he tries to touch (my hideous belly, gross arms, back rolls, etc.), so no I am not happy with my body BUT I don't think I any longer have this delusional image in my head that I'll be some skinny HAPPY girl. I know I'll always be a "plus size" girl but my body won't limit me from doing certain things. It's not that I'm not happy now, I am pretty happy, but I want to be able to do more.  Blah blah blah, so I can't be a part of the Fat Positive movement can I be a part of the weight loss crowd? I kinda want to be in the middle. I want to start my own movement!
Wow, Anyway! The entire reasons behind this post was my outfit today. I was at Walmart the other day and found this great black and grey striped dress for like $14 and I wanted to get it because I thought it would look great with my first pair of real leggings, also from Walmart, for like $9! I really didn't have any sort of outfit to go with the leggings as everything was not cut right or too busy of a pattern and I got 3 compliments on this today. The photo is pretty silly in it self but I didn't go see my mom at lunch (my usually photographer of my outfits, haha) so this will have to do for now. I really need to geta  better one. I, as always, ditched the belt the dress came with and wore my wide black belt and a cardigan from Lane Bryant. I love the little detail in the neck line of the dress. It's really adorable. Ok, here's the bad picture :) Let you "all" know how tomorrow goes!

Monday, October 28, 2013

New Blog Name, Need Your Help!

Ok so when I created this blog the last thing that was on my mind was a title, or name so I just sat thinking for a minute and just came up with something quick to get going. Now, I'd like to change the name! Here are a couple I've come up with:

Does anyone have any other ideas? I am struggling because I want to emphasis this IS a weightloss blog but I want to be more into fashion too!? Ack. Ideas?! Votes for your favorite above? HELP!